4 weeks

we had a scare of our lives when i started spotting out of the blue 2 days ago. and being a first time preganancy, we naturally freaked out especially me. i became a nervous wreck to see that im bleeding. blood must indicate somthing not good is happening right?

so we went to the clinic downstairs who straight away advised us to go to KK. so we went to KK 24-clinic. i was still alright. could still laugh and talk to Hubby. den we went to see the gynae on duty. that blardy gynae! i hate her. she made me cry non-stop for the whole nite and morning and made us worried like hell.

so she did the scan on me. after doing the scan, sat me down and spoke to us. wanted to know if i wanted to be warded to monitor the bleeding. of coz i didnt want to. didnt specifically inform us how long the bleeding may go on. set the next appointment 1 week later. and the best of all, informed us that she couldnt see any baby!

how would you feel if you were me & Hubby? all happy and excited to know that i was pregnant after 1 year of trying and stress and suddenly have a gynae tell us that she couldnt see any baby!! we both were shocked! especially me. i became so sad. so many questions going thru my head. so was i pregnant? 2 positive tests couldnt be wrong. did i have a miscarriage? did i do somting to make it happen?

so we went home still dumbfounded. i cried the night thru. everitime i see blood, i cried. everitime i tink how there is no baby, i cried. Hubby became very worried. till he couldnt tahan seeing me cry animore, we decided to go for a 2nd opinion. he callled SGH and set an appt with a gynae dere.

we went to SGH. waited 2 hrs juz to do scan again. the nurse reali had a hard time doing the scan. so i was like down again, thinking, ok, this nurse also cant see baby, den dere muz be no baby. and its all my fault.

we went to see the gynae after that. oh, she so nice that im sticking to her i tink for the rest of this pregnancy. dont tink i wanna go back to KK or poly. she explained to us everiting in detail. gave me tissue when my tears pipe began bursting again. even gave us her hp number and emel address. tried to calm me down when she saw i still looking so damn worried. how cool is that??

well, back to the story. looking from the scan, my pregnancy is actuali juz 4 weeks old. not the 7 weeks old as estimated by the doctor at the poly. so when we found out that i was pregnant 2 weeks ago, baby was juz 2 weeks old. so the doctor was kind of surprised as to how i knew i was pregnant at such an early stage. not many ladies do.

so told her the story how i was constantly feeling nauseous, sore breasts, cramps….

but i tink i juz my clever little darling baby telling me ‘hey mommy, stop stressing out coz im here!!!’. he/she announcing to me of its arrival. hehe. 2 weeks old and alreadi so cwever.

as for the bleeding, it may be because the fetus still very new and any changes in the womb can bring about the bleeding. so that explanation so so helped me alot!

we’ll see how things goes from here. when the bleeding will stop. how the baby is progressing. praying that baby will grow and we can hear her heartbeat next week. juz give mommy a sign baby. sign that you are growing healthily.

we do know the pregnancy is still so so earli. and ive read that this is the period miscarriages happens. but wateva happens, happens. wateva happens, im happy to be given a chance to be pregnant, to feel all these pain, to have my Hubby pamper me to no end, to know a living creation of Allah grew in me. if He permits, i pray that this 1st trimester go thru smoothly and i’ll be able to hold my baby in my hand next year. Insyallah.

pray for me friends.