crapping

06Dec06

my Darling going away on a KL trip for 3 days and 2 nites, leaving me all alone. kalau leaving me aje alone takpe, still got task for me to do som more. wat else, gif food to his cat lah, dat comel. so on friday and saturday, i haf to travel all da way to aljunied juz to put food and water at his front door so dat comel can makan.

sian leh. pokai seh. if i wasnt pokai, dese 3 days wifout Dear, i wld haf merayap alone and spend money. but at da moment, dere’s no money to be spent. da days seems to be creeping by so slow. macam nak tunggu da 12th tu, teramat lambat sangat. geramnya!! not dat i need to use my money on our dates but having and spending ur own money feels betta isnt it? or is it da oder way round? hehe

and dis sunday, his parents a.k.a my future parents in law are coming. to discuss abt da wedding. not dat im sure wat dey wanna discuss abt wif my parents. mayb abt wats gonna happen on da wedding day itself.

macam cepat masa berlalu. wen december ends, lagi 5 bulan aje im gonna be married. insyallah. pray dat i dont becom a runaway bride eh. keep tinking abt it, and how it scares me dat im getting married. keep telling Dear dat im scared, but he tinks im crapping. serious, im scared.

and da panic and da nervous and da excitement haf not kicked in yet. mayb wen january comes. den mayb reality kicks in. as for now, not feeling aniting xcept da feeling of sadness dat im leaving da family soon. im counting down da days i’ll be leaving my mama, ayah, nenek and adik. it saddens me. mayb on da day im gonna reali move out, im gonna cry hard. as for now, i wanna try to spend as much time as possible wif my family. precious time…

sometimes i juz wan to get da wedding over and done wif. comsuming too much money, energy and brain space. and i haf limited storage space in dere ok. but not denying, da preps can be fun. at da moment, me and Dear are enjoying our window shopping spree. planning wat to buy come 12th dec. and somtimes wen both cannot tahan alreadi, he juz zaps da card. one ting ive learned abt Dear thru our shopping xpeditions togeder, Dear likes shopping, way more den me. he’s more vain den me. he can sound like a gerl, unlike me. seriusly, he amazes me. esp wen he insists on buying stuffs juz so he can color coordinate his cap, sunglass wif his t-shirt wif his watch and his sandal. and me, i cant be bothered as long im clothed.

oohhh da eyes are heavy. time to sleep. nitez.

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