Thankful September 27, 2006

when i meet people from outside of my social circle, and as if its that big, but reality check, seriusly its not, it gives me my much needed once in a while please-count-your blessings kind of wake up.

like today. exhausted as hell. started work from 9am and ended tusyen at 7.30pm and reached home at 9.30pm, all exhausted and feeling all wanting to give up. little depressed. yep wednesdays to fridays are my weekly depressing sucky days.

but…

juz a little talk with a person, nearly a stranger, made me realise, why da heck am i whining and complaining?

i have my health.
i am fat and mayb healthy. at least im not so skinny like a skeleton skinny coz im sick.
i have my career. altho still young and make me tired as hell. at least im do not have to run around looking for work. im doing wat i love and hope that the passion wont dissappear juz yet juz bcoz of some unworthy ones.
i have my love, whom says i love yous to me everi single nite. and i still complain tons about him.
i have my frenz.
i have my family.
i have my cats.

so facing tomoro with a smile. yep all this till i enter that p6 class at 9am tomoro. den all dis will be juz crap. khkhekhe.

Love Ya September 25, 2006

im fine. seriously. yep some problems between us but like mommi fard said, we women tink too much. somtimes we juz need to let da problems solve by themselves. but too bad, im juz not a believer of dat. impatience mayb. too practical mayb. but wateva im not, he is. mayb dats why he completes me. my other half.

not denying some big issues bugging da hell out of me. i would reali like to express it out on dis blog, share it wif everione and mayb get some opinions but the ting is im not one to wash, dry and fold my dirty linens in public. much less my fiance’s.

so selagi termampu, juz let me whine, complain, let out my frustrations here wifout revealing his weakness coz im seriously zillion times far from perfect.

as for dose big issues dat may seem big too me but mayb not him, yep will insyallah solve it. i still haf 8 more months.

to mommi fard. thanx for being my sanctuary dese 4 years. dont worri. if i appear at your doorstep again, den it realli means serius business. you are da onli one i can come too or run and cry too and you would be on my side. no questions asked. khekhekhe.

to rai. thx darl. i know dat you are always dere for me. a call or mayb a sms away. khekhe juz kidding. likewise for you yarh. but i tink tings are going beautifully for da bride-to-be isnt it?

to mira and zal, i mish u both. i miss u all commenting abt my flared up penyet nose. uwahhhh!!!

hehe me and my whining. love my baby and love you selengerz. dont forget about 7th oct yarh

Kindness September 24, 2006

“Kindness is being concerned about the welfare of others. Kindness is showing you care about anyone or anything that crosses your path, knowing that everything is a part of God’s creation. Kindness means to care for others and the earth as much or more than you care about yourself. Kindness is showing love to someone who is sad or needs your help” - Virtue of The Week.

anybody wans to show me kindness coz i tink im in need of some. i tink i haf some serious issues i need to settle to the fiance before i can get married to him. some serious issues that have been bugging me non-stop, especially these few days.

i dont know where to start. and i dont tink i can haf a face-to-face talk with him. i know my own weakness. my bad temper and sensitive nature. attempting to juz start on da topics will anger me. and i how do i settle these issues den?

so many things going about in my head, sometime i wish i would juz stop coz its tiring me out. all this thinking too much. trying to compromise and make sure that while i give in to his needs, i dont lose out on what i believe in. sigh.

dont know how men can juz sweep problems under da carpet and act like nothing happened or problems will solve by themselves but we women haf to crack our heart and our head trying to solve all these problems ourselves. God help me!

selamat menjalani ibadah puasa ya all

My Personal Driver of the Day September 17, 2006

good thang i got my no-need-to-pay, willing, personal driver today. i was travelling from one end to anoder end of spore for tusyen. taking da public transport would haf been tiring and time wasting.

hehe too bad he’s gonna haf to be my permanent driver for life.

p.s: so is ramadhan next saturday or next sunday?

Boyz Will Be Boyz September 14, 2006

my feet hurt so bad. been standing 1 whole day nearly everiday, from morning till nite. and i tink da feet are complaining about da heavy toll dat dey haf to carry everiday. hehe me lah.

and today’s period wif da notorious p6 went ok. downloaded some music videos and played it for dem. 1st music video, “dani california” by red hot chilli pepper. wow, i was amazed dat everi single one of dem actuali sat down and paid full attention to da music video. made me happy too. so now must download more music videos, so dey wont get into trouble. but one problem, music videos nowadays are so full of naked women, men, shows of boobies sticking out, men & women making out, i had to sit and watch da music videos before i could play it for dem. i was like da censorship board.

but dat didnt stop dose “satans”, as wat their form teacher calls dem, to get into fights wif each other. in fact, 2 fights. 1st fight, 1 boy said he was talking to himself, den anoder boy was staring at him. da talking-to-himself-boy got angry and wanted to beat up dat staring boy. so i brought da angry boy out of da classroom to calm himself down. wen i came back into da classroom, da staring boy was crying hard and his form teacher was dere, consoling him. apparently, anoder boy kicked da staring boy on his lips. so da 3 boys were angkut to da VP’s ofis.

boys and fights, i dont get it.

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All Measured Up September 11, 2006

accompanied by da parents on sunday, went to chinta weddings to pick da designs dat abg wan created for me. thot dat onli gonna choose da designs but skali he also measured da body for da 2 bajus. alamak. didnt know it will be done dis early.

but felt kinda xcited dat im gonna get new bajus. but not reali dat xcited about wearing da bajus on da pelamin. does dat make sense?

while da bride-to-be was all measured up, da groom-to-be has yet to visit chinta. dat lazy bum dengan bangganya announced dat he’s leaving all da decisions to da wife-to-be. he’s willing to wear aniting dat i’ll be choosing for him. i tink da groom-to-be is onli anxiously waiting for da wedding nite, all oder matters are not important to him.

so now da bride-to-be has da duty to go on a diet. diet=starving? was juz warned by da fiance dat diet is not = to starving wen i told him dat i’ve not eaten da whole day. macam tau-tau aje mamat tu dat im attempting to eat less. so i kena force eat and da onli makan place near da tusyen place is da mamak shop. so choosing da lightest food i can tink of is prata. but tink again, fatty food also seh.

and back to da bajus, dis fickled minded, undecisive minah still dont wat colors she wants.

im so gonna mish all dis preparing for kawin tingy once its over

Little Man September 9, 2006

recognise dose ‘little men’?

one ‘little man’, da love of my life. who fell asleep tonite wifout calling me. chet!

while da oder one, is reali a little man in da making. who’s away till next tues. and we all are alreadi missing him terribly.

yep we went to watch ‘little man’ juz now. i gif it 2.5 popcorns. a good movie if u wan to put ur brains aside for a moment and juz haf a good laugh. get my drift? juz a fun nonsensical movie. i love da wayans brother. especially da ‘little man’.

Ghost Whisperer September 8, 2006

awwww today’s episode made me all teary eye and smiling at da same time. made me miss my darling even more.

to dose who watched it, you know wat i mean. to dose clueless ones, go start watching it.

Fard’s Bday Celebration September 7, 2006

we celebrated fard’s bday at swensen’s causeway pt. gosh i mish dem so much. good dat altho 4 mths haf gone by without dem by my side, i am still able to maintain my selenger attitude wif dem.

and by “we”, i meant mira, rai and me. zal had a laz minute tingy which i believe is reali laz min. if not we would be eating his chicken, watching dvd till morning and bunking at fard’s haus. so zal u owe us all chicken okie. and da pengantin barus are missing.

to da bday mom, hepi bday again. wish to individually apologise abt da incomplete and laz min bday celebration. so unlike past years, feel like dis year’s was not a good one. firstly coz of da incomplete geng and it was kind of rushed, since it so hard to meet nowadays. promise, next year’s gonna be a betta one.

i tink da soon-to-be mommi looks way slimmer den me chet!

to mira, thx for da treat. after 4 1/2 years, we finally got our swensens treat. next time i treat u ok. u can makan a lot at my wedding. muahahaha.

love ya gerlz

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p.s: cants wait for 7th oct

Selamat Harijadi Fard!!! September 5, 2006

selamat harijadi to one of my bestest fren, mdm fardilah mohd nasir or more affectionately known to us all as “fard” or to me, “prootttt”!!! hehe sori bday gerl takleh marah.

so enjoyz dis special day, skg bertiga not juz berdua.

and my dear fren, love you

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